Well today is Clay's 9th birthday. We invited Jacob and Emily to come along with us to the movies today. My niece Lillie came and spent the night with us and this was her 1st time to the theater. It was a really good day. I have thought back several times today about where I was nine years ago and where I am today. At times it became a little overwhelming, but I cannot imagine my life any other way. Just thinking back is a little bittersweet. I had this beautiful baby and lived in a world of chaos, lies, and turmoil. I guess the most depressing is the fact that my mom left me at the hospital after I had Clay and never came back to the hospital because she was pretty much told that she wasn't needed. I didn't know about that until the day that I came home from the hospital. That is something that you can never go back and redo. I needed her so much and I was so ignorant to everything I just tried to keep the peace, but looking back it was just a control thing, he told me that he didn't want anyone around-and that meant my family. So there I was, my best friend was his ex-wife, she took the place of my mom and helped me with Clay for the first 2-3 days. He basically said he would be a better father after Clay was about 5-6 yrs old, when he didnt whine and cry as much. Fast Forward 9 years-He hasn't been around since about a year after the divorce(Clay was 2)-A Prayer answered. Mark has been the best father that God could have ever given Clay. Our life now is just a blessing, God has truely been good to us. Even though I feel a little sad because my baby is growing up, I have a deep down happiness just knowing that God has given me the promise of taking care of Clay when it is time and I wouldn't have had that 9 years ago. Now that my priorities are in order I am just thankful that God chose me to be Clay's mommy.
He will always be my Baby.
Jacob
Lillie
Emily
On our way to the movies to see "Night at the museum, Battle of the Smithsonian"
Wow, three tries to blow out those candles
Clay and Chad putting together the Sears Tower 3D puzzle that Clay got from Jacob.
4 comments:
Happy Birthday Clay! I didn't know you had such a history. I'm glad your life is better and that you are at Pleasant Union. WE love you and Brooks loves Clay.
Emily had such a great time! So glad you have contentment!!! :o)
I am mso thankful God has been so good to all of us!
Hapy Birthday Clay!
Happy Birthday Clay! Audrey, you have been so supportive this year and I have enjoyed working with you, Mark, and most of all Clay! I miss him dearly! I am so glad that God is good to all of us and that he lifts us up when we need him the most!
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